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Update: BookExpo + Being a Busy Bee

Hello Groovy People,

I haven’t been on this in months!  Wowzers! I have been super busy with work and trying to go back to school (kinda) and working on making my book, Journey’s End, a hit. Things have been steadily moving forward.  It takes a ton of energy to not give up.  Besides dealing with a few things, I have been making goals and keeping an optimistic mindset.  (Better said than done)

I will have my book, Journey’s End, on the New Title Showcase at the BookExpo in New York!  More information coming soon!

Until then…

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Graduation!

I am done with all my classes. I am so happy to be finished with school. I will take this time to work on my book (details in a future post) and relax until March!!!

4 months to go!

September is here and I am so very close to graduating soon. I’m busy brushing up on Japanese and counting the days till December!!!!!!!!!Happy Man

In the Meantime…Reflecting

I like metaphors and symbolism.  This picture visually shows how my life is right now.  It’s empty, beautiful, lonely, clear, and without a true destination.  Who knows where that path ends!

I am so close to graduating college. I know I am on the right path, I know where I want to go, but for now there are unseen obstacles.  I may not get financial aide for the fall, I may not be able to go to Japan the month I want……..

We try to plan and prepare for everything, but just like this path, all we can see is what is there at the moment.  We can’t look that far ahead(literally and figuratively).

As for the empty and lonely part, I am taking this path by myself.  I have no romantic relationships, nor is anyone traveling with me when I do move to Japan. I will do this all on my own.  Even with support, I am physically alone.

Scary as it may be, this path is just beautiful.  There is some clarity in my mind at the moment.  My head seems clear now than ever because I am done with all my classes for my major.  I just need the fall semester and thats it.  For once in my insane life, I feel the pressure of college slowly lifting and being less than it was several years ago.

As I continue this path/journey…I hope that my goals will be fulfilled. I hope that one day I can come to a destination that I longed for.  I hope that I can also find love from another and not be so lonely.

Till then I look at this picture that represents me and keep walking….

The Fire Scorches with My Hate

My heart lingers for that feeling of warmth. Dark degree of hatred scratches at my soul. Devouring it to it’s last ounce of life. My hate blooms with a power so fierce it frightens even me. How can the wicked live on with their hate as mine dooms me to a stump of endless pain? Harsh reality hits me like water from a hieght of a hundred feet. It tingles at first then burns profusly. I set fire to your land in hopes to make you burn with me. My hatred burns within me and leaves me with nothing. Curse the day I met you and saw your devious smile. Time with not wilt my pain or sorrow. Only with fire shall I burn you with my hate. Forever will you be lost in a endless balance of ash. Dark fallen and mourned. Breaking apart with every touch. This I hope consumes you as it has done me. Life is not what I had hoped it would be. So there you have nothing not even your fellows to save you now. Die countless times, and burn endlessly.

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I wrote this based on one of my characters from Amazons of the Myst.  This is when the character Nanette is betrayed and expresses how she feels.  This is not in the book, but something I created based on the content.

An Amazon from my novel

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This is a picture I drew of one of my characters from my book Amazons of the Myst. This is Nanette. I had my friend pose for me to get the figure just right.  I have more character drawings but I got to find them. haha.

This picture is on my deviant art website.